From my
personal experience, I feel that we all need the time to vent. I know when I
was going through my darkest times all I really wanted was to say it out
loud. I did not want sermons or advice, nor did I want someone to tell me
they were praying for me. What I wanted and needed was someone just to let me
say it out loud. Even though I was my own worst enemy and created my own
problems, I needed to verbally express my frustration with my situation.
I was not blaming God, I just wanted to say it without the judgment of other
believers.
We all have
similar experience, you know what I mean, you can’t concentrate when you read
or study the Word, the music that lifted you up or quieted your soul either
irritates you or leaves you feeling numb, verses that you know by heart and
depend upon to comfort you seemed to have been erased from your memory.
And your prayer life? What prayer life? You stumble and stutter,
get so sleepy, too busy, hit the wall and “bounce prayers off the
ceiling”. I’m frantic trying to figure out why this was happening. I
would be angry and start railing at God for “forsaking” me. Sometimes I would
even profess that I was giving up!
I am
thankful that I made it through those times. I did not have anyone
to verbally say it out loud too. So I would drive in my car, miles and
miles of driving. Radio off and at times, me screaming at the top of
my lungs of my frustrations and my pain. My Christian friends were not
there. But I did not do it alone. There is a friend that sticks closer than a
brother…and although I was always taught that I needed to be reverent when I
prayed, I’ve learned that sometimes prayers can be done in different
ways. In my times of frustration and loneliness, when I thought all was
lost and there was no one there, I cried out to God and He was listening all
the time.
In times of
struggle and frustration, it is okay to question. It’s okay to cry
out. You do not have to always understand why you are going through hard
times. You don’t always have to feel happy about the way your life is
going. Your salvation is not dependent on your feelings. Hard
times do not equal displeasure from God.
What am I
supposed to do?”
“Just pray about it…”
“I’m praying for you…”
“You just need to ask for forgiveness…”
“You have un-confessed sin in your life…”
“I feel sorry for you…”
“Jesus loves you…”
“You’re running away from God…”
“Just pray about it…”
“I’m praying for you…”
“You just need to ask for forgiveness…”
“You have un-confessed sin in your life…”
“I feel sorry for you…”
“Jesus loves you…”
“You’re running away from God…”
All of
these responses have their place. They are indeed true when applied correctly. Unfortunately,
I have seen these used in the wrong manner and at the worst times.
I thought
for a moment and I tried to remember what would have helped me when I was going
through similar things. Only one thing came to mind, I said…
“Hold
on…hold on to your faith…even when God doesn’t make sense. It will be
okay, just hold on to your trust in God! “
What is the
Lord teaching all of us in times of trouble?
Hold
on. That is all, just hold on to your faith and your trust in God.
Hold on
when you can’t see the end of trouble, hold on when you cannot hear God’s
small voice and hold on when you do not feel like God is there at
all. The lesson learned for all of us is that God is holding on to
us even when we don’t feel His arms around us. God allows us all to go through things in our life that we don’t understand.
It is part of the “testing” of our faith. This “testing” does not always
mean you are in sin. There are reasons why God allows it. Sometimes
in life we see clearly why, in other times, we will never really know until we
get to heaven. The bottom line is that God wants us to remain faithful
and holding onto to our faith regardless of the situation in our life.
If you are
struggling with hard times. Times where you feel so far away from
God. Reach out and just hold on. Remain faithful. Determine
to stay the course. You can trust that our Lord will take you through the
deepest, darkest, loneliest times.
Just Hold On.